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I am what is known as a psychiatric survivor. I've had three breakdowns, each occurring after SEVERE SLEEP DEPRIVATION. I was forced to take neuroleptics each time, but have been off of them now for over twenty eight years. The problem is that, even though I took these drugs for very short periods of time, they left me with permanent damage. My first breakdown came in 1975, before I had any children. I was on Haldol and Cogentin for about four months, then took myself off these drugs after the psychiatrist refused to do it, telling me I would have to be on them for the rest of my life. After I went off of them I realized that I had lost the feeling in my saddle area that made it possible for me to become sexually aroused. I also didn't understand why I couldn't feel when I had to urinate until there was strong pressure in my abdomen. I wondered if this numbness would be permanent, but was relieved when, after two years, the feelings came back to some degree. (However, they were never to be as strong as they had been.) Well, time went by, and I married and had two children, one in the hospital and one at home, both without anesthesia. The feelings I had seemed intact until about a month after my second child was born in 1981. I was a nursing mom, did my own diapers, and worked very hard, often into the night. My baby seemed to have colic, both of my children woke me up over and over at night, and I could not get them to sleep at the same time during the day. So I didn't sleep for about a week. I started to exhibit psychotic symptoms again, was taken to the hospital, forcibly drugged, and labled a "chronic paranoid schizophrenic". Again I took the Haldol and Cogentin for a couple of weeks, then flushed it down the toilet. Again I had lost all my sexual feelings and had to remind myself to urinate. After a couple of years I began to feel just a little. Then a major family crisis came along in 1983 over which I didn't sleep for about a week. I would have taken a sleeping pill if I could have, but did not have the opportunity until it was too late. By that time I thought I could do anything. I felt like a superwoman. Well, I was only in the hospital for three days, and I immediately flushed the Haldol and Cogentin down the toilet when I got home, but it was too late. I felt as though I had sat on a big piece of ice that I couldn't get off of, and it wouldn't melt. 'Still feels like it never will. I have (literally) sat on this secret for over twenty eight years. At first I thought it must be psychosomatic, something having to do with my anger, and went though extensive therapy. Then, in 1993, I found an M.D. who would actually listen to me, and he put me through some medical testing. When he had finished he told me that I had apparently lost the feeling in my saddle area. In other words, I have a permanent saddle block, or PERMANANT GENITAL ANESTHESIA. I am blessed with a wonderful, understanding, husband, whom I've been married to for thirty three years. We have two grown children, who are both married, and two wonderful grandchildren. I'm AMAZED, because I was once afraid to marry and have children. As I was working toward my BA in Psych, I was told that mental illness is inherited. Yes, it seemed to run in my family. My great grandmother died in an institution and my mother was on psychiatric drugs for most of her life, until she developed Tardive Dyskinesia (brain damage) from them just before she died. I thank God everyday for my family, but I believe that it is important for me to share my story with the public now because so many young people are being given the drugs I was given, and other similar ones. I have heard about people who are on anti-depressants reporting permanent sexual side effects, but I wonder how many have experienced them after being given the major tranquilizers (neuroleptics). The damage that these drugs have done to me has been DEVASTATING. Is it any wonder that there are so many angry, violent, depressed, and suicidal young people when so many of them are being put on drugs they can't "say no" to? Country: United States Occupation: Montessori Teacher

Post-SSRI Sexual Dysfunction Is Real and Devastating

I read this article via Mad in America today.  Unfortunately, stories such as this one are very common.  I belonged to a support group on Yahoo for nine years and read many, many of them, along with sharing my own … Continue reading

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Torturing new mothers and then wondering why they get mentally ill.

Originally posted on Mia's Blog:
? Torturing new mothers? Who does that? Well, as a society, we all do. I’m not kidding, I’m perfectly serious, and I’m going to stop mincing my words and say it how it is.…

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Tardive dyskinesia – a sign of iatrogenic injury from neuroleptics

I have tardive dyskinesia. I’ve not written about it. I can’t find a single reference online about it that doesn’t pathologize it..and DRUG it further. This is a very brief definition taken from WebMD (and to be clear they do…

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A friend of mine on Facebook posted this yesterday.  Gwen Olsen is a former top drug rep who sold Haldol to nursing homes only to quit Johnson & Johnson and become a whistle blower when she saw what it was … Continue reading

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Mad in America: Lasting Damage from Prescribed Drugs

By Joanna Moncrieff, MD Post-SSRI sexual dysfunction “Further evidence of long-lasting changes associated with antidepressants, in this case, comes from the emerging literature on post-SSRI sexual dysfunction. It is well established that SSRIs commonly impair sexual function while they are … Continue reading

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Psychiatric Drugs and Sexual Dysfunction

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Psychotropics and Sexual Dysfunction, by Anthony J. Bella and Rany Shamloul (Published by US National Library of Medicine National Institutes of Health from the Central European Journal of Urology. 2013; 66(4): 466–471.) “Sexual dysfunction (SD) is common in patients taking antipsychotics, and is … Continue reading

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Sexual development in kids who’ve grown up on psych meds (and how drugs impede normal bonding in everyone)

I’ve posted some variation of this post more than once now. I felt moved to post it again since I had a conversation with a journalist friend who is thinking about this issue too. My last paragraph in this piece…

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Know Your Drugs is a global awareness campaign that was developed by Canadians for Vanessa’s Law in collaboration with RxISK. Vanessa’s Law is named after Vanessa Young, who died on March 19, 2000 when she was 15 years old of … Continue reading

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Post-SSRI Sexual Dysfunction–Trying to Find a Cure ~ By Kevin Blow

“A complete and permanent wipe-out of your ability to make love is among the most debilitating side effects of a drug imaginable. In the case of all these drugs when it happens it affects men and women, young and old, … Continue reading

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Mad in America: Real People, Real Side Effects: Stories of Sexual Dysfunction

By Jhilmil Breckenridge “…..In their desperation to get well, patients, their families, and doctors push drugs, often as a first course of action. In my opinion, drug pushers are not just the sleazy ones we associate with gangster movies. These drug … Continue reading

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